A Journey Of Self Redemption For Love
In abundance and excess, humans soon forget what matters most. She wanted you. You ignored her and went for someone else. When your world was down, you came back to her, and she said no and no again. You had your chance, but you were preoccupied with the Distractions of Excess Abundance (DEA). Now you dream of her endless wishing you could have her again for good – hoping to not repeat mistakes of the past and hoping never to let her go again. In your imagination and dreams, you see her naked, feeling her dimples and lips, the embellishment of natural magic, that tone of body, smooth at best, full in breast, breath taking, rough in bed, but tender in touch, that softness of touch, that galaxies of similes, that unsynchronized motion, that sweat of romantic relief, that sweet allure of romantic times as if it was a dream that show never end. She was every breath, and all the energy needed for a sweet romance. Closer to you she came, her body touching yours and it happened as she wanted as always again and again, as love gave up to sleep. You woke up in the arms of loving embrace, of those Breathtaking Soft Angelic Voice (BSAV) on your forehead, with a close proximity Tender Romantic Kiss (TRK) of True Affectionate Love (TAL), wishing you a happy day. She was once in bed with you, and once in love with you. Now, it’s but a dream and illusion that became a delusion, a utopia that has become a dystopia, an episode in life that has become a fascination. Now, your imagination goes wild about her. Now, she has become your Fixated Romantic Phenomenal (FRP). She was once everything you should have had that you had and let it go. Keep dreaming, my friend, you may have her back. But you must work for it, clean your mess, redeem thyself, and prepare thy ways to pave the path for true everlasting true love.
Lamentations for lost love. Those beautiful days of your life in the hands and laps of the one and only one who was once yours and truly yours are gone. You let her go to perch on other beautiful aromas or nectars, flavors, or heavens, as you would say. But a cheating man is a lost man. A loveless man is lust in love. Now look at you, full of excess and abundance, lost in love and blush in lust. Look at you, empty in heart, needing tenderness, but bankrupt in true love. You’re empty, and you know it. You’re futile without her back in your life, and you know it. The Universal Romantic Constellation (URC) gave you your better half and you let her go, and you know it. Now you want her back. A new journey has just begun. You shall go on a journey of Self redemption for love. Along the way you shall relive thy mistakes, learn thy past, redeem thyself heart, and prepare thyself for thy true love, only if she wants you back, she may or she might not. Do more to win the one you love. What is true love without the effort, without the sacrifice, without the journey or endeavor? Go get that which you deserve.
Looking for a lost love. Now, you travel places after places looking for her, adventures after adventures looking for her. Where is she, where shall you find her, why take so long, isn’t she in the warmth of another? What doeth thee to get her back? Shall thou fight to get her back? Shall thou race to compete to get her back? Shall thou supplement to get her back or remind her of the good times together, what your life has been without her, or what your life will be with her if given a chance, again? So went thee, places after places inquiring about her, searching for a heart lost. Remember along your way Seeking Romantic Redemption (SRR) You became a Change Affectionate Being (CAB)? Truth be told, you became a good Samaritan along the way. Remember when you once refused a ride and later saved all the passengers when there was an accident? Remember along your journey you brought peace to a couple in marital dispute? Remember when you realized along the way that you were too cheap and frugal and decided to tip more and appreciate others more?
Remember along your way Seeking Romantic Redemption you helped the homeless find a home, or discouraged two men from ganging on the other? Remember the hope you gave the lady who was despondent in her relationship? Remember the advice you gave in a square that there is more to gain in love than anything else? Remember helping the one guy seeking a job who finally found one? It was good of you that you get to experience your inside self on how it positively and meaningfully effectuated the world externally. You have learned the value and impact of love, how love feels, and how the absence of love burns. You shall have true love again when you’re ready. Remember the beautiful temptation along the way of redemption that you resisted? She was Beautiful Attractive Temptation (BAT) of the finest of build. But you said no, this time – for there is something more gracious and precious than fleshy lust. You learned your lesson. You learn along the way of your Pilgrimage of Romantic Redemption (ROR) how to love again and how to cherish the one you truly loved. Now, she will be yours when you find her or where you find her- for you are a new man, the man of her taste. True love is decided by the woman, not the man, she will say. But the man shall prove his love if he wants to keep.
The feelings and affections of true love hardly fade. That love that was once there for you had moved, the true love that was there for you hadn’t escaped her. She wished you one day would come back for her. She once loved you and left with a broken heart. You shall heal that heart if you want to get it back. Only this time you shall work harder to appreciate it more when given. She had moved on with someone else, though not forgotten of you. She loves someone else, not to be lonely, but her heart was given to thee that you tore. Fix that which you have broken to win back her love. Loving you wasn’t a sin or an act of desperation. It was true love in hindsight that you never understood or never took the time or gave it the time appreciate. It was love that you never had the time to know what it means, how to appreciate it, nurture it, or see it grow to blossom. Love is always more important and meaningful when lost. Now, in loneliness, lovelessness, and loss, you want her back, just her, and no one else. You imagine your time together, the natural beauty of the body, her presence, warmth, smile, affection, and good counsel; her patience, intellect, creativity, depth, and Endless Energy of Cosmic Presence (EECP).
For once you were in love, in true love, for someone true to you, but you ignored her feelings and had others over her. Your excess and abundance blinded your way to true love. That which was supposed to be a compliment became a curse – loving the things that are loveless. She once genuinely cared about your wellbeing, future, health, safety, happiness, and joy. You miss that now and wish it back. But she was once there for you, doing more than expected in the name of love, hoping for a future for both, but thy mind was still in the world of women, changing them like dresses in a closet. Your mind is preoccupied with a future without her or neither are you building a future that involves her or family to be or something that can be passed down to generations of you both to be. She was the future to be and you dash it away in Endless Empty Futility Pursuits (EEFP).
Love was once on your side, you blew it away, and let it slide away. Now you want her back. She might not want you back. But are you ready to move on positively, to change from your old ways, to surrender your life to a single love, and be there without jumping around like an aimless being? If she does want you back, shall you sacrifice your love for her, occupy your mind for her feelings, sentiments, affection, and interest, or do what she wants as she says, or thinks fit? Can you accept to be let by love, to be governed by faithfulness, and driven by Romantic Affection for One (RAO)? Most men try this test and fail. Be the one who knows what love truly is – Doing the Simplest Meaningful Affectionate Things of Life. Providing for love is one thing, doing the things that protects and preserves love is another, and being an embodiment or emblem of the love itself is another. You know someone is in love through their holistic peacefulness, joyfulness, and flourishment together. Love changes a being to the best of it. Natural Positive Simplicity (NPS) is a state humans attain once in true love, freeing themselves from the Pleasurable Things of Unnecessariness (PTU). In love, life is clearly simplified; life is well spent, meaning is clearer, purpose is driven, and harmony restored. In love, the business of life blooms, purposefulness replaces distraction for wealth, health, and joy to build a castle in the human heart. If love is true, then a Conducive Sustainable Union (CSU) is possible. Love is her now and yours. Don’t let it go somewhere else. Accept being in love and hold onto it.
American Philosopher
Prince Israel Zaar 08.30.2026
